Arvinraj - Full of brilliant new ideas

Well, there are two kinds of friends in this world.

• One, is the true friend, who will share anything with you, and hope nothing in return.
• The other is the one who will be your friend, merely to use you.

A true friend, to me, is a person, who shares the same interests with me. It doesn’t have to be exactly all, but some similarities will do just fine. Even though it sounds idealistic, but I hope this friend will share almost all of his feelings and thoughts with me. I even hope, that this person is not materialistic, which means willing to share anything with me… Even inviting me to his house And I don’t even have to be shy when I invite him to my house.

And oh, forgot to mention one thing - I hope he is of the same gender with me, as I am very shy when facing girls…

Of course, a true friend should share a lot of time with a friend, and I hope for the same thing. Maybe we can spend lots of time together chatting, or do what we like together - And if can, something that’s about breaking the rules which could be very fun If can he shouldn’t be arrogant, and cares for me a lot.

But the truth is, I have never met such kind of friend, which means only one thing.

It is not that I am saying that my friends are back stabbers. I had some friends backstabbing me, and being my friend merely to ‘use me up’ and ‘dump me to the roadside’ once I am of no use. The rest of my friends are just neutral.

And, I am saying again, I have no true friends. I’ve met one just recently, and thought of being a friend of him, but I’ve discovered something, that the more I get close to him, the more I discover about his attitude. And his attitude really angers me.

Um, not to change the topic to him, back stabbers are the kind of person who wishes to be your friend only to either gain benefits from you, or to overthrow you. And that could either be because of revenge or envy. I’ve met this kind of people frequently. Maybe not as many as those who is working, but certainly I know it’s more than the rest who is in schools.

Maybe because I am living in the fast lane. Time is just not enough for me to do everything. And maybe, this ‘everything’ came from ‘friends’ who are just ‘misusing me’. And maybe, I am getting back stabbers because many are jealous of me.

I’ve realized that, first of all, the teachers are just using me. I have been the goody-ol’-goofy who never rejects any request. I could be either not good at rejecting, or it is just that I did it because I don’t want to hurt their feelings. And they certainly are taking advantage of it. -> And the same thing goes to my friends who like to back stab - Do something wrong and put all the blame on me.

They don’t only put blames on me - they can do all sorts of stuffs, which include talking bad behind my back, trapping me to one corner to overthrow me and being nice to me only when they have something in mind. And this one is the worst, and I hate it the most - discriminating, or even being a racist. Now, just to make it clear, discriminating is a wider word if compared to racist. Anyone can discriminate others due to their language spoken, ranks or social status, just as a few examples.’

I even feel that I’m even more close to my mom and my brother than anyone else in this world. No one knows it - they thought that I’m not close with my brother since we don’t talk much in school. But please do remember, when we’re very close, talking never seems to be important. It’s just that we understand each other.

I really hope, that one day, my dreams will come true. It’s okay, I can continue to withstand those back stabbers, but I really hope that I will get a true friend, the one that will be my one and only BEST FRIEND. And getting friends are important. Very important since they give the most impact to my life.

~ by arvinraj2 on September 23, 2007.