When A Friend Lets You Down…
Ah, yes… friendship. It’s easy to obtain, but hard to treasure.
The hardest would be the best.
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And just when you’ve thought that you’ve gained the true one, you suddenly get second thoughts. Not because of over thinking, but because of suspicions brought up by him.
And ah, it does happen on everyone, don’t you think so? Maybe he says he’ll treasure it like he worships God, but he seems to leave you alone right after leaving you those sweet words.
And yes, when he starts to get closer to others more than he is with you, it’s time to put the friendship to a test. A test that will determine the future of the bond. A test that will measure how much he is willing to share with you. A test that will foresee the fate of the both.
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"I don’t know what you think, but I’ll always treat you as my best friend"
Well that was what he told me, but I sure did feel comfortable after hearing this. But soon, he seems to talk less often to me, and then, just when I thought that good things are ought to come after the bad, he seems to… oh, I can’t really tell. I don’t see him any longer. One minute he’s there. The other minute, zap.. he’s gone. And this was the reason for the examination… Just find a chance, and then…
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Test 1:
Bluff him on what I hated most (and that is what he does in his daily life).
I told him about "something" which I hate, but he actually practises it REALLY, REALLY often. Let me see if he continues with his habit. The least I hoped was, not to allow me to witness it with my own eyes, or in other words, not during a conversation with me.
Results: Never was affected. He was with his style all the time. Continued even in front of me, without shame.
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Test 2:
Tell him that his personality disturbs
Ahem… quite a bad test, but it’s worth a try… Just told him that he has loopholes in the way he conducts his life. Let’s see if he changes and tries to improve it.
Results: Um, firstly, he WARNED me that I might expect someone that I don’t like, and then… He just seems to continue with his style.
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Test 3:
Call him out for a day
Well, I organised a plan, and invited him. Um… cannot be said just one, but many. This test is not inly good to measure the friendship, but it also strengthens it. Well, it will if he says yes…
Results: Hmm… first he said no, then he appeared with his other friends at the same place… Hurting, isn’t it?
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Test 4:
Get him jealous
Yea… he did that and now it’s time for him to TASTE HIS OWN MEDICINE!!!! Muahahaha!!! Actually, I’m not THAT bad, I just got someone else to be close with whenever he’s around. After all, he never called me out for a day… This was the same trick I’ve learnt from those romantic TV dramas (Hey, mine is not a love story, but we can surely apply its lesson, right?)
Results: He wasn’t affected at all, but instead… oh yeah, like those TV dramas, he got another to counter me back… in front of me. (I don’t know if it’s his intention, or he just wants to get closer to others rather than me)
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Test 5:
Ask him what’s wrong
I pretended to look in misery, and then tried asking what he thinks of something. Well, this test was actually caused by luck, because he told ’someone’ that he isn’t happy, and it’s quite related to me somehow. So I just asked him what is wrong.
Results: Whoa! Instead of telling what disturbs him, he was telling me off with all those incorrect statements. I just agreed and said yes, as I’m afraid I might hurt him.
Now, I after hearing those, I really doubt that he is innocent in feeding someone with faulty points about me, which really got me into a BIG trouble.
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Test 6:
REJECT HIM!!!
LOL, this is truly not a love story, but you can really practice those tactics, I tell you. And so is vice versa, you can practice these strategies in your love life. But I’m not that evil, you know. I’ll not go straight to him and shout out "We’re off" at his face.
Instead, I rejected coming to an event.
OK OK, I know it’s quite confusing, so let me just introduce about it a little. I and ‘him’ are a member of a party and I was required to attend a ceremony organised by the party. I just said no, and waited to see what will happen.
Results: As predicted, he just asked me to come, and then nothing. Okay, that was fine. So i just didn’t show up… Later that day, he messaged me how interesting the activities were and how much fun they had.
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Well, that’s the end of it… I never thought of anymore test, because I’m VERY, VERY afraid to get the truth. I don’t want to get hurt anymore.
Just the other day, I went hiking and playing computer games in a cyber cafes with my other friends, whom is not linked at all with ‘him’. They are mostly some of my classmates and the class next door, and also some ex-MGS students. I tell you, I really had a great time. I actually kept quite passive that day, because of some alien but friendly faces I face. Haha. And then, one of them showed great concern of my passiveness, unlike some other people I know… To that person: I REALLY HAD A GREAT DAY AND IT WAS FUN! SORRY FOR BEING VERY QUIET BUT THANKS ALOT, I REALLY HAD AN ENJOYABLE MOMENT!!! (yes, I know you’ll be reading this)
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Yes, I know. I can be very sensitive, and can be very obsessive when it comes to friendship. (Oh, don’t forget that sensitive means alert and aware of the surroundings to every bit of detail, not easily get hurt and emotional)
Me and him? Well, just stopped talking to him, and stopped sending him jokes. Now it’s just like "U Dun Disturb Me, I Dun Disturb U". When I see him we’ll just exchange greetings. That’s all.
Once, he told me that he knows Scorpios; that a Scorpio will slowly leave a friend after getting close to him. And it seems that he’s right. He is slowly losing a Scorpio, all because he has failed to prove to be a good true friend. Now we’re mere acquaintances and we’re back to square one.
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Oh yea, one more thing that I’ve learnt: Never make friends with those
in your team. They can get really lazy once they’re comfortable with
you.
Just a note for you, if you are the person who is related, keep this to yourself, never ever tell this to anyone, especially to ‘him’. I would really be grateful. (Who knows, I might be testing you by posting this…) LOL!!!
Thanks.
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P/S:Just joking lar…. I’m just posting to express what I feel inside, not to test you…but I’m not joking about keeping it to yourself part…. I’d really appreciate if you never tell anyone after reading this…
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